I was just thinking…

Wow! What a dangerous way to start a sentence! You don’t really know what’s coming next do you?! Well…. I was just thinking… about weddings. I know this might sound odd considering that I’m already married, but my sister is planning hers and it got me thinking. Darrell and I had our wedding about four and a half years ago. It was big. It was HUGE! We had about 650 people there. It was very overwhelming for us. We basically did everything the way we did for everyone else. I loved my wedding but if I were to do it again it would be completely different. The only people I still have connections with in my life from that day are the C3 staff, my family and a small handful of friends. Seriously… like under ten friends.

This is what got me thinking.

For a long time I did a lot of stuff in my life based on what other people might think or get out of it. An event like my wedding has played a huge part in changing my mentality on why I do things. Am I doing something because it is the best decision for me, or am I playing along with what people’s ideal of me is? Darrell and I have said that someday we will renew our vows and it’s going to be a true representation of us. We will dance, we will spend quality time with the people we love… not shake hand after hand of people we barely know and never talk to. We probably won’t even do it in a church building… gasp! We’ve realized that we did a lot of things based on what we thought other people wanted to see us do. Where is the truth in that? God does not dwell in a church BUILDING… He dwells in those who love Him and follow Him. I’m excited for my sister. She is going to do things the way she wants to. Maybe I’ll get some ideas!

I’ve decided to carry these lessons into my life. I want to be me. The me God created me to be. I like to “shake it like a Polaroid picture.” I like to be real. I don’t like being a phony bologna! I like to say things like “phony bologna.” This is me. Love me or leave me. About 600 chose to leave. I’m glad I now know where the love is. Thank you for loving me and others like me! The people who lack a little tact, those who are becoming a comfortable in their own skin. Once I learned this lesson the 6oo were replaced with a group I identify closely with. I was just thinking… if we accept who God has made us to be He will show us who we need to be with. I love who is with me now more than ever!

-Posted by Andrea