Settled

I was on the phone with my sister Brittney yesterday. She has been married now for about three weeks. She is so happy. Her husband, Eric is a great guy and my family loves him so much. He is the perfect match for her. It got me thinking about women and our longing for stability and that certainty of being settled. It is such a deep and innate yearning in a woman’s soul. I know men feel it as well but we as women thrive on stability in our relationships. It sustains us.

I have been blessed with an amazing husband and I can’t imagine my life without him. I remember when we were getting life insurance coverage for the both of us and having the agent discuss with us the possibility of things if he were gone. I wanted to cry just thinking about it. I can’t even fathom the idea. The sense of loss seems unbearable. I’m so grateful for the stability and love he provides for me.

Beyond spouses, friends and family I am settled in my relationship with God. He will never leave me. I don’t want to take that for granted. There are times when it has felt like He is all I have to rely on. I know that there will be days when my friends, my family and even my husband will let me down. God always pulls through for me though. He is the ultimate. I’m so thankful for the stability He has provided me in Darrell and others in my life. I know that when people provide some of that in my life it is because they have experienced it in God as well. He is the source.

I know this is hitting on a bunch of areas and I’m kind of all over the place. I guess today I’m just dwelling on the certainty I have in God and the people He has put in my life. I’m thankful for the friends He has given me that stay the course and will sacrifice just about everything to see others have the same certainty. I’m thankful for Brittney and the conversation we had last night. It freshened up my gratitude for my settled life.

by Andrea.

i still love you

I have been abandoning you my other blog that I contribute to. I’m sorry… please don’t break up with me. I still love you.

Okay… so I’ll try to write on here more.

Darrell brought me flowers to work yesterday. He made me so happy! I was having a very long and exhausting weekend and I came home Saturday night with it all over my face. He must have felt bad for me or something. I don’t know what it could have been that tipped him off. Maybe it was the puffy, red eyes or the fact that the minute I got home I went to the bathroom and then hit the bed, immediately falling asleep. I’m usually up until about midnight… or so. Maybe it was the fact that I kept telling him repeatedly how freakin’ tired I was. Or maybe it was the fact that I hadn’t seen him for more than two seconds all weekend except for my sister’s wedding… which in and of itself was…. exhausting and beautiful.

Church was fantastic yesterday! Forgiveness in the family…. wow…. what a subject! UFC is a series that resonates with everyone. We all have families and we all have crazy, annoying people in our families. There is always one. I hope I’m not that one?!

I hung out with Hayden today. We hit up the Chuck E. Cheese again and then Petland to play with puppies. It has become a regular date when he comes over. It always makes him happy. Today Amanda met us out there with Ansley. The first thing Hayden said to Ansley after he smashed her face in his chest from hugging her so hard is, “you’re so pretty and that’s why we’re gonna get married!” Play on playa!

Darrell isn’t feeling well tonight. This is incredibly rare. I’m usually the only one who gets sick in this family. I’m going to baby him and make him dinner or something. This is also incredibly rare. I love my hubby… I must get him back to good health!

CU at C3!